Yeah, my best friend is a guy. I know, it's weird, especially since I'm a girl, a teenage girl no less. But you see, that's the thing, we've never really thought of it that way. He's always been there for me, I'll always be there for him, no matter what. I can tell him anything and I know that I will never be judged and that what I say will stay with him and not be broadcasted around the world. I trust him with anything. If you saw us, you would never think that we were best friends, honestly, I never thought we would be either.. He actually used to scare the stinking daylights out of me. But, as we got to know each other, I realized that we weren't all that different. We both loved music, the same bands, you know, little stuff, but I never knew that this little stuff would bring us so close. I'm not going to pretend like our friendship has always been sunshine and rainbows. Yes, I have hurt him. And yes, he has hurt me. But anytime that we are fighting or anything along those lines I seriously don't know who to turn to. Like I said, I tell him everything, and when you're fighting with your best friend, you can't talk to them about it, you know? I would seriously feel like total crud every day because I felt like i had let him down or done something incredibly wrong. And any fight that we've ever been in, I've always wanted to just throw everything behind me and say that I'm sorry. He is always there for me. His advice, jokes, and personality are seriously incredible. He really helped me to step out of my comfort zone and to stop being so shy around everyone. I don't know how he did it, but it worked. The distance kills me, but knowing that he won't ever leave makes things quite a bit better. I miss and love my bffaeuwdagthaewgtislyt.
But what do you think? Do you think boy/girl friendships work?
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Challenges
"This is the worst day of my life." "Everything is going wrong." "Leave me alone!"
Slam the door shut, block out the chaos that consumes my life. School, parents, friends.
There's nothing I can do, I'm a complete screw up
Inhaling my troubles, secrets, problems, hurt
But keeping everything inside
Consuming my life
Turn the music up louder, tune life out
Climb into bed, hide under the covers, take a deep breath, and do it all again tomorrow
Surprising? Yeah, I know. But lately, I've just felt like things are out of control. I honestly didn't know where to turn to or what to do because I didn't even know where all of my problems started. But that's the thing, it wasn't just one instance that started the conflict and confusion.. it was a culmination of little things that were slowly, but steadily, taking my focus off of Christ.
It's not that I was starting to act like a "bad kid", but I wasn't trying my hardest to be a light for Him or to even strive to make my relationship with My Savior grow stronger.
Today, I met with Jordan Summers after school and I can honestly say that what we talked about can and will change my life. At first, she just let me vent.. get everything out that I've had built up for months, even years. Then, we made a list of all the things that affect my life the most and decided which ones I can change, and which ones are things that are completely out of my control.
I'm not gonna lie, I like to be in control and be able to make my life go the way I want it to go, so letting go of some of these issues will be very difficult. But, focusing on the good things in my life and how happy I am when they are in my life WILL help me get through this.
We made a list of challenges that I'm going to accomplish this week. And every time we meet, I'll get a new set of challenges. Some of them are one time things, and some of them I will use for the rest of my life.
Here's some of the stuff we chose for this week:
-School: Have a good attitude, talk to people, get to know one person in every class, and talk with my mom seriously and maturely about why I want to change schools.
-Soccer: Learn to love the sport again, talk maturely with my mom about the issues I have concerning the sport, look for opportunities to shine.
TV: Eliminate MTV and Glee (this one's going to be HARD, not even gonna kid you)
Twitter: No negativity, unfollow any negative influence, and tweet 1 Bible verse a day.
Slam the door shut, block out the chaos that consumes my life. School, parents, friends.
There's nothing I can do, I'm a complete screw up
Inhaling my troubles, secrets, problems, hurt
But keeping everything inside
Consuming my life
Turn the music up louder, tune life out
Climb into bed, hide under the covers, take a deep breath, and do it all again tomorrow
Surprising? Yeah, I know. But lately, I've just felt like things are out of control. I honestly didn't know where to turn to or what to do because I didn't even know where all of my problems started. But that's the thing, it wasn't just one instance that started the conflict and confusion.. it was a culmination of little things that were slowly, but steadily, taking my focus off of Christ.
It's not that I was starting to act like a "bad kid", but I wasn't trying my hardest to be a light for Him or to even strive to make my relationship with My Savior grow stronger.
Today, I met with Jordan Summers after school and I can honestly say that what we talked about can and will change my life. At first, she just let me vent.. get everything out that I've had built up for months, even years. Then, we made a list of all the things that affect my life the most and decided which ones I can change, and which ones are things that are completely out of my control.
I'm not gonna lie, I like to be in control and be able to make my life go the way I want it to go, so letting go of some of these issues will be very difficult. But, focusing on the good things in my life and how happy I am when they are in my life WILL help me get through this.
We made a list of challenges that I'm going to accomplish this week. And every time we meet, I'll get a new set of challenges. Some of them are one time things, and some of them I will use for the rest of my life.
Here's some of the stuff we chose for this week:
-School: Have a good attitude, talk to people, get to know one person in every class, and talk with my mom seriously and maturely about why I want to change schools.
-Soccer: Learn to love the sport again, talk maturely with my mom about the issues I have concerning the sport, look for opportunities to shine.
TV: Eliminate MTV and Glee (this one's going to be HARD, not even gonna kid you)
Twitter: No negativity, unfollow any negative influence, and tweet 1 Bible verse a day.
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